Item 9 - Autograph letter to Beaton.

Is amazed that Beaton should accept her resignation so easily. Is aware that no one is indispensable but feels that no one could have managed Beaton's business so well as she has done in the last 10 1/2 years despite her illnesses. Has letters from Beaton thanking and praising her and would like to believe these rather than his current attitude. Feels that her virtues outweigh her shortcomings. Her biggest mistake was to take on too much and take too much to heart. Certainly she had Beaton's career and happiness at heart. Reminds Beaton that Olga warned him that she was not Mary. Discusses the ways in which she helped Beaton with his financial affairs. Was very hurt during their "First and Last Row" when Beaton said she could not look after his business as she had been away ill for six months. Felt it was "cruel and heartless" of him to suggest that she is not well enough to cope. All she needs is three months of holiday which she did not take last year after her serious operation because she put Beaton's interests first. She has only herself to blame for not taking the proper advice. Took his row with his mother absolutely to heart and was determined to set things right. Knows that Beaton is very disappointed about his play. Points out that she only offered her resignation because "it was forced upon me by your attitude that morning". Hates writing long letters as much as Beaton hates reading them, but this one had to be written.